I am.

Happiness is a word everyone is searching hoping to catch a glimpse of.  We hope it is around the next corner or we will awaken tomorrow and everything will be okay.  The truth is, the more time we spend hoping and wishing that happiness will find us, it actually moves farther away.  


I have decided to instead take every day, every event for what it is.  If it seems as though it is a negative event, well there must be something good in it.  I will find that and embrace it.  When other people try to break me down, make me weak, make me believe that I am less than what I am, I will stand up and say no.  I am a beautiful person, inside and out.  I am talented.  I am not worthless.  I will make a difference in my time here on earth.  None of us last forever, not even everything we make will truly last.  We might as well make the best of what we have while we are here because no one really knows what comes after this.  I refuse to fall into the trap of "getting through" days or weeks or life in general.  When my time finally comes, I refuse to have any regrets.  No one should ever leave this earth saying "if only" because that simply means they didn't take chances that they should have.  No, I don't plan on risking my life just for some quick fun, but saying no to a chance or opportunity just because it may seem hard or "not worth it."  


I know this seems like rambling, but if you don't share your thoughts, they can build on each other until they take over.  I don't know what the point of this is, I don't know where to stop it.  What I do know is that I spent today doing things that I enjoyed with people I enjoy.  I didn't get through today, I experienced it.  And from now on, I plan on being an active participant in my own destiny and life.  No one can ever control my thoughts or how I feel about myself ever again.


I am invincible.
I am me.
I am.